July 30, 2013

Apparently the bible says "fear not" & "do not be afraid" around 100x. I get it. I am fearful. Really this looks like anxiety in my life. And any time I have ever opened up about anxiety about a million more people say "me too"

Here are some of my reoccurring irrational fears:

-leaving the pump in my car at the gas station
-toasting a roach in the toaster... once and/or repeatedly
-that anyone near bucky balls is going to swallow them
-cats biting me
-Sunday School 
-someone coming up behind me while I'm washing my face and have soap in my eyes
-angels coming to visit me
-hands grabbing my feet when i get in bed 
(this is an old one, but since i remember I'm sure ill jump to my bed from far away tonight)

Usually, none of these happen. Sometimes Rob comes up behind me while washing my face but he is trained to say "I'm coming" And spiders happen. Satan's pets. And sponges happen, just usually not to me. And no angels thus far, at least that I perceived as angels.

All this to say I am so sick of the energy wasted on being fearful. I have memorized this verse:

"My peace I leave with you, my peace I give unto you. 
I do not give to you as the world gives
Do not let your hearts be troubled, nor let it be afraid."
John 14:27

After pondering this for a while
1. For him to leave peace with you, you have to be in his presence
2. But he also just gives it, thank God
3. How does the world give? With other motives & temporarily
4. Don't let it?!?!!?! I just ask for peace about a million times a day.

Anyway, thats where I am today.
Peace be with you! 

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